he walked away from me without a single goodbye. he didn’t ask me to sign his yearbook, or even say i’ll miss you,just walk away like i never exsisted…………..

for those who don’t know, yesterday was the day that the person i cared for like a brother like my best freind had his last day of school and i know that we aren’t going to be good freinds because of all that has been happening between us for the last six months. all of a sudden he started to slip out of my reach and i had already perpared myself for what i thought was going to be the hardest thing to ever happen. but that wasn’t the case i never would of expected he to not let me sign his yearbook, not say goodbye, not to walk home one last time with me.

what did he do………………

he smile at me before last period and then walked away, wouldn’t walk home with me or say ashley i’ll see you again……………

poeple keep telling me you’ll see him again, but that wasn’t what i was worried about, i have done things like this walk away and then when i see my OLD freinds i say hi and smile and talk for a minute and go on with life, like a freindship there never exsisted. i didn’t want that for us i didn’t want him to forget about me the times we had together, but the way he acted was like nothing was there in the first place. everyone who knows me knows that i care for him. he is like a brother to me, like come on i would do anything for him including go agaisnt my 250 lb brother because he was talking bad on him……………….

and i am only 118………… he was twice my wieght

but when it comes to him there isn’t much i can’t do i would do anything for my family by heart. and he is part of that family…….. but what hurts me the most about what he did was that he didn’t let me say goodbye. didn’t let me say good luck, i’ll miss you, and “remember to smile” didn’t let me try to hug him one last time. but, i guess he wouldn’t of wanted me to……… cause maybe he didn’t care about my goodbye or the fact that i know what would of become of us…………

we were always going to end up saying a quick hi and bye, forgeting the fact that he is my brother my freind. and in a way i think i rather us be good freinds or no freinds then that type of freinds. cause i have alot of those but not many good friends who are there and going to stick beside me threw thick and thin. i just wish i could of changed the way he ended up feeling about me, i know in a way i deserve it, i never would of expected him to hate though. never would of wanted him to hate me…….

but he does.