well,you know already know the story,if you read the last post………….

right now i am writing this from inside school,  couldn’t go to class, just had to write………

i just bumped into this my boyfreind in the hall he made a big deal about everything, trying i guess to close my eye to the fact that he was playing me and trying to be nice but he was totally just being worse….

he tried saying that his bestfreind and mine were lieing to me and that all that they are trying to do is get you away from them, first his best freind doesn’t lie and that was enough for me because why would  his best freind do that, and why are othee people saying that he was indeed lying to me….

i feel worse now then before, because him lying to me made me more mad and then i started to say something i guess i really shouldn’t of said,,,,,,,,,

i said that he should just go and cheat on me already with the other girl he loves……

i feel really bad,but i kind a feel like now maybe he should be with her instead of me, i don’t know why he wants to hurt me and right now i don’t know what to do.

everyone tells me that i deserve better that he didn’t want me in the first place that it was the other  girl he wanted…. and i deserve better then that

the thing is that i really did and do love him but i don’t know if i can still go out with him if i don’t trust him anymore… is it possible to make this relationship work if i don’t have trust in what he says or does any more.